A letter to myself:
Don’t fall for people you can’t have.
It’s a targeted plan for self harm.
Do you like this feeling of torture.
Of longing and empty space.
Does it remind you that you have emotions?
To desire is to be human.
To desire something you can’t have is idiocy.
What would you even do if you found yourself inside her walls?
You’d set her up to fail. You’d ruin her.
You’d run the fuck away.
You want to scream in her face in frustration.
Be available. Take me home. Keep me.